There's no crying in baseball!

So, every now and then I'll tune in to whatever country radio station is set on my list of second choices in my car. First of all, you should only listen to country music (or Death Cab For Cutie) when you're completely and utterly emotionally stable or else it's just bad news. Second of all, I wasn't exactly emotionally stable yesterday. So this song came on. It's by Sara Evans and it's called "You'll Always Be My Baby." Yeah, I know, it sounds cheesy, and it sort of is, but Lord did it ever get me. I'll let you read the lyrics before I go on...

There I was ten years old
Waiting in my room for him to come home
And I just knew He'd be so mad
Though I begged my mother not to, she told my dad
There was no denying I had let him down
But instead of being angry he put his arms around me and said

In the sunlight or the rain
Brightest nights or darkest days
I'll always feel the same way
Whatever road you may be on
Know you're never too far-gone
My love is there wherever you may be
Just remember that you'll always be my baby

There I was twenty-one
I was so ashamed of what I'd done
On a country road
Parked one night
What started out so innocent crossed the line
There was no denying I had let God down
But instead of being angry,
He let his love surround me
And I heard

In the sunlight or the rain
Brightest nights or darkest days
I'll always feel the same way
Whatever road you may be on
Know you're never too far-gone
My love is there wherever you may be
Just remember that you'll always be my baby

There he is
My little man
I'm sure he'll get in trouble every now and then
And I pray to God that when he does
I'll be just as understanding as my father was
'Cause the last thing that I wanna do is let him down
So instead of being angry, I'm gonna throw my arms around him and I'll say

In the sunlight or the rain
Brightest nights or darkest days
I'll always feel the same way
Whatever road you may be on
Know you're never too far-gone
My love is there wherever you may be
Just remember that you'll always be my baby

Ok, sooooooo...
It starts out talking about how when she was ten years old she did something wrong and she thought her Dad would be mad but instead of getting angry he put his arms around her and said that basically no matter what she's done or where she is he'll always love her just the same. So, obviously, that got the emotions rolling because lots and lots of girls (me included) have Dad issues and it sort of hit close to home. But, I held it together until, of course, the next part of the song.
She then starts talking about how when she was 21 she let things go too far one night and she knew she had let God down but instead of being angry he surrounded her with love and said no matter what she's done or where she is he'll always love her just the same. Ok, now a lot of you know that for the past couple of months I've been struggling with knowing what I really believe when it comes to all that God stuff. So when I heard this part of the song I basically cried my eyes out driving down the street in Atlanta.
I don't usually believe in "signs." I don't ever ask for them. I usually just chalk things like that up to coincidence. But seriously....how could this not be God trying to tell me something? Really... I mean, within the past three months I started dating someone, got very close with him, got broken up with, and the whole time all that was going on I was questioning everything I'd ever learned about God since I was 8 years old. That's a lot for me to handle all at once. But here in this song I'm reminded that no matter how far I go, whatever road I'm on, I'm never too far gone and God will love me just the same. I'm never too far gone and He'll love me just the same. I'm never too far gone and He'll love me just the same. I'm never too far gone and He'll love me just the same. I'm never too far gone and He'll love me just the same.

So I pulled up in front of my house, wiped off my tears, took a deep breath, and went inside.