Shaunna Faye

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Suffering

I do not suffer silently.
Today has been one of the worst days so far regarding nausea.
I've tried every trick in the book and nothing will ease my pain.

And despite the 8 1/2 hours of sleep last night, I cannot seem to keep my eyes open today.

Something is working double time in my uterus and it's dragging me down. I think I read that the baby gets eyelids this week or something. Ain't that some shit? Stupid eyelids are making me want to die.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Trading places.

Chris had a dream a few nights ago that he was pregnant. This probably stemmed from me asking him if we could trade places. I would much rather skip this nausea and heartburn, but still end up with a baby. I'm happy to contribute to the research that could figure out a way that would allow men to have babies.

I have a sneaking suspicion that I will not be one of these happy-go-lucky pregnant ladies. I will hate these next 7 months, I will complain and be uncomfortable, and I will vow to wait a very long time to do it again. Or at least until I have had ample time to forget how much I do not enjoy being pregnant.

3 more weeks until my next Dr. appointment I get to have a pap smear. Awesome. Chris will be sitting this one out. Not much will have changed between 8 and 12 weeks, and it's much more difficult for him to get time off of work, so he can jump back in at 16 weeks. I imagine I'll take my Mom with me to my December appointment. She won't have Cohen then, so she'll be able to come with. I'm sure she'll like that. Especially if that one (if not the one before) will be the appointment we find out the sex of the baby.

Man, I'm so over this.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Baby!



There it is. Glorious!

It doesn't show it in the picture, but there are actually two sacs. One is empty though. The Dr. said it was probably a vanishing twin. So, no twins this time (which Chris is bummed about) but we have one healthy baby with a heart rate of 171 beats per minute. She said the empty sac will just be absorbed and won't be a problem.

There's also a small cyst on my right ovary, but it's very small and they expect it to go away on it's own. That's just a normal side effect of Clomid. Well, both things are....the twins and the cyst.

I'm kind of relieved there's just one baby. I'd love to have twins, but I wouldn't love to carry twins. So, one baby is A-OK with me. Chris can be bummed all her wants - he's not the one that has to grow them inside of his body and carry all that weight.

Anyway, everything looks good. I'll be going back in 4 weeks, as expected.
Yay!!!!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Thursday!

It's Thursday!!!! It's Thursday!!!

Do you know what that means? It means that in less than 24 hours, I get to see this little monster that's been growing inside of me and giving me hell for the past few weeks. Can I already put him/her in time-out? Cause this nausea behavior is unacceptable.

8:00 AM tomorrow morning I'll be in my doctor's office wrapping up my lower half into one of those terrible paper sheets, and ever so modestly propping my feet in those sock covered stirrups. Lovely. I, however, won't mind this time around.

I want to see that blob/bean/spot on the screen and hear/see a heartbeat. Then and only then will my heart be at ease. Although I know I'm still not considered to be "out of the woods" until about the 12th week, it's all I really need right now to keep me going.

And could this day get any better with all the new fall Thursday night shows starting up tonight? The Office, Parks and Recreation, Community.

This is a good day. All the waiting is almost over.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Can I?

Can I just poop? Please?
This is ridiculous.

Here we go again...

I'm armed and ready for today's nausea. Ginger Ale, Ginger Snaps, and Preggy Pop Drops. We'll see how they work for me. After last night (where I spent the majority of the evening laying in agony after eating 2 pieces of pizza), I'd eat or drink anything that made me feel better.

Is it Friday yet?

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Miserable

I finally broke down today. I've been nauseous for days and it only seems like I have a few hours here and there that I don't want to barf. Every smell is horrible. Even the good smells.

So I just lost it. I stood in the bathroom and cried. I got it out of my system and then I went and ate some soup for dinner since what I'd made earlier in the crock pot was inedible to me. Chris said it was delish though.

In addition to the never ending queasiness, I can't walk 50 feet without my hands swelling. It made shopping for Daniels birthday present today REALLY irritating. I had to buy milk anyway, so I walked around the store with the cold milk in my hands which helped a little bit with the swelling, but I still couldn't make a fist.

And don't even get me started on the acid reflux. I hate my body right now.

Bottom line - this stage of pregnancy can kiss my ass. I'm ready to move on. Please, please, please.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Right Now

Right now:

-Sierra Mist and Water are my BFF. Ice cold only.
-Even the thought of Vitamin Water makes me want to barf.
-I can only make myself eat about half of what I used to.
-Morning sickness lasts from about lunch time until I go to bed.
-The nausea is more annoying than painful. I don't think I'll ever actually puke. I'll just always feel like I want to.
-A week from tomorrow I will be getting my first ultrasound. If the way my body has reacted is correct, then I feel like this one is going to stick for sure.
-It's really only been 2 days that I've felt bad, but I've already forgotten what it feels like to not have an upset stomach.
-This acid reflux is a BITCH.
-I'm seriously considering switching refrigerators with my parents older one (my Mom offered when we first moved into the house) for the sole reason of having crushed ice on hand.

Myers-Briggs Personality Test

A blog I read suggested that everyone take the Myers-Briggs Personality Test. If anything, it's just fun to see what a test like this says about you. Chris and I both took it. Here's the results:

Me:
Dominant Introverted Sensing

Dependable, reliable and trustworthy, they like to belong to solid organisations that are reasonable in their ambitions and loyal to their employees. They feel useful when their roles and responsibilities are clearly established and they can monitor their activities and productivity in tangible ways. They tend to be rather modest, traditional and conventional, to like sensible clothing, to be thrifty, careful and wise with both money and possessions.

Once they accept a project, they will see it to the end. They manage their time well and are realistic about how much time and resources will be needed.

They tend to like to stay in one neighbourhood, often choosing to live close to where they were themselves raised. They are often involved with volunteer organisations and have a developed sense of citizenship and accountability. When they purchase something, it is after careful consideration; rarely will they buy something without having a known need or use for it. They may keep possessions for a lifetime and treasure those that were given to them.

They tend to have a good memory for specific facts that are necessary in their day-to-day life at work and at home. They accumulate facts and details to orient themselves, relying on repeated experiences that have been proven trustworthy. A fact once experienced may be the product of circumstance and happenstance; it is not in and of itself reliable. When an introverted sensing type hears an idea, they rummage through reams of archived facts to find an experience that provides information for the relevance and realism of an idea. When an introverted sensing type utters, "It's never been done!" they are saying that no information about the relevance or usefulness of the idea is available to them. They tend to shy away from surprises and what is perceived as unnecessary change.


Chris:
Dominant Extraverted Feeling

Feeling types seek continuity through harmonious relationships and collective values. They excel at picking up on the tone of a situation and acting accordingly, adding warmth to a cool setting or turning sour into sweet. They will naturally seek to know what people do well, what they enjoy, where and how they work, and understand what they need in order to make the appropriate connections with other people. They weave and strengthen the collective fabric of social conventions and interactions.

Let an extraverted feeling type know that you are in need of an accountant and they will most likely give you several names. They seem to have an infinite number of acquaintances from all walks of life and are always on the lookout for people in need and those who can help out. Inclusiveness is important and they are particularly sensitive to those who are excluded.

Harmony comes from good, supportive relationships and upholding collective values. They are always focused on the other person, feeling a glow when those around them are happy, and troubled when something is amiss. They are natural cheerleaders, often expressing support, gratitude, and encouragement, and heaping praise onto those they appreciate. They take note of what is being done and what needs doing, offering their help and assistance wherever necessary.

As team players and project leaders, they have a gift for rallying their players, focusing on what is being done right and each member's strengths. They are loyal and they expect loyalty. They carry conversations well, finding common ground with their speaker. They tend to find the correct and gracious way to respond in any given situation, no matter how tense or uncomfortable it is.

It is well to note that extraverted feeling types will uphold a wide range of values, simply because shared values are what create harmony. Some will profess the importance of tough-minded logic, justice and scholarly debate because their environments have these shared values. They tend to adopt the collective values of those they love and 'belong to'.


Here's the link if you want to take it. It's just 4 questions.
http://www.personalitypathways.com/type_inventory.html

Monday, September 07, 2009

A labor break.

This weekend was just what I needed. Tons of extra time. Chris and I got the whole house clean from top to bottom. We (I) got to sleep soooooo much. And we just got to do a whole bunch of relaxing.

We've had to come up with a new cleaning plan. Normally I do most of the inside stuff except for the kitchen (Chris likes doing dishes for some reason) and I leave all the yard work up to him. Now, Chris has taken over cleaning the bathrooms in exchange for me taking over the kitchen. The closed in space of the bathrooms with all the chemical smells just isn't good for me right now. Also, Chris has to scoop the litter boxes. (There's some weird bacteria thing that preggers women can pick up from them so they suggest not doing it.) Anyway, I still vacuum, sweep, dust, do the kitchen, etc. I just have to take frequent breaks to not over extend myself - which I think I might have actually done today because I'm not feeling too well right now. Or maybe I just don't feel well because I'm not supposed to be feeling well. Whatever.

Now, if I was as good at making myself study as I am at coming up with excuses not to study, I'd be a smart cookie. I've just tonight actually started to go over all my notes for my finals on Wednesday. It's easier to learn all the body parts and where they're located than it is to learn what they all do and in what order. Eh.

Laundry is going right now, I'm supposed to be studying, and I'm thinking about going to bed....at 9:30. Maybe after I fold this load.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

I don't even care.

I am tired.
I am very tired.
There isn't enough time in the day.
My uterus feels like it's a giant water balloon pressing on my bladder causing me to pee every few hours.
Did I mention that there is no time? (For sleeping, cleaning, studying.)
I need sleep. And a shower. And more sleep.
And everything inside of me is stretching, which I can feel pretty much constantly.
But I know if I stopped feeling that, I'd worry. So that part is ok.
I just need a couple of days of rest and normal daily life.